Sunday, November 29, 2009

recovering from breakup

I will share my own story...

my first boyfriend..for me he's truly amazing truly..he's cute,sweet and very passionate..

sometimes I wonder does he really love me??or just because Im a nurse, rich etc.

I discovered there's a period of time that I have to move away from him set my goals...

set my future..I discovered he started t be very unfaithful to me and all he did was lying behind my back...

my real second boyfriend which is the father my unborn child Summer Angeline, this was WHOLE different story...

I was like He rocked my world, dnt ever let go of him

I don't want to loose him,and you know what happen???

I don't know myself anymore..I'm losing my identity

my family dnt know me anymore, my TRUE friends telling me I don't have enough time to bond with them..

Then Summer came, little did I know, the dad don't want me or her in his life..

my LIFE stop..

I can't even breathe ...I was like pleading for air
running out of blood...
quenching for water to support me

He's telling me he LOVE his ex-gf...

well he's a FUCKING ASSHOLE!!!

we enjoyed every moment making love etc. , whispering words of " i love you baby" while doing it..hahahahaha!!

such a DOG!!!

I've realize maybe he's right he truly love the girl , so much he doesn't even want me to speak to her, he doesn't the girl to get hurt,

kahit na sinasabi nya na lam nun Girl na may relationship pa kami that time...

but I can't really seem to know if he LOVED me...

cause ' I've asked him..

"mahal mo pa ako" he can't even breathe or even look at me , when I asked him...

I just saw a pain in his eyes a tear ran down on his left eye...

was that a sign that he loves me too... I don't really know but that moment will remain in my heart, he and Summer will be a learning Journey part of my life ....


I will see someone who's gonna better , treat me right and will turn my life into goodness...

My friends are right i'm inlove with LOVE...

the concept of it itself...

I'm not going to be cynical about it but I have to be careful with myself...


I had a beautiful dream... again I was an angel able to fly away with my insecurities,pains,worries in life.
new chapter...
I have a guy admirer,usually i fight with villains in my angel warrior..
These dreams by HEART would be a nic e background while flying and that guy his face really stuck in my mind..gosh i have to google search him...

my oh my as in...I really can't help it...
I have to find him really badly...

Monday, November 9, 2009

loving my artistry

this may look simple but for me this pictures looks enchanting..

sorry na lng this is one my passion..

my mom is used to be the photographer in our family...

now it's my turn..

Saturday, October 24, 2009


now i step out of my closet and realize that time will tell that I could control myself, drag me to hell,bring me up to the heavens,

I have a lot of friends from different walks of life, Im so blessed for that, I thank God for that

Wednesday, October 21, 2009


"I wish I could freeze this space in time, I wish I could feel ...for you inside,this is my moment, this is my precious moment with you".PERFECT MOMENT by Martin McCuthcheon
.I miss you even though you've hurt me a lot, even though you broke me into pieces, and didnt know how to start.
I may not be perfect, nor as special as you think, but I present myself to you, as a woman, a confidant, a backbone for your decisions.
Im here always even though Im bleeding profusely to death, calling your mercy to accept me back again.
Im waiting , still hoping that you'll soon come to your senses and realize what you've done to me

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

baby angel...Mommy loves you so much...always remember

Mommy,why are you thinking of getting rid of me? I love you already,cant you feel and see? I already have ten little fingers and toes, two eyes,a mouth and a little nose. I kick,I move,I wish I could say, Mommy,please dont throw me away. Give me a chance to live and see what I can become, I might ,someday,be president, If,God's Will,this can be done. I may be tall or short,A girl or a boy, Please mommy,love me and please dont listen to them that tell you to destroy. I was sent By God above to give you strength and love, I belong to Jesus,the Lord and Savior up above. He only loaned me to you,I belong to Him and He sent me to you, I beg you to think again mommy,think about what He will do, You will stand before God if you take my life and don't repent of this sin, I am very special,on me you can depend. I will grow up someday and I'll take care of you when you get old, You will love me when you see me,more precious than pure gold. Give me a chance,mommy,this I plead, I will be all that you ever need. You will regret it if you make this choice in haste, Mommy,oh mommy,please wait and see my face. I know I can make you love me if you just give me a chance, I will make you happy enough to laugh,sing and dance. I ask you again,one more time before you throw me away, Please dont do this mommy,please let me stay.

----baby angel, mommy loves you so much...I'm so sorry...Daddy loves mommy too, It's just that....

---Baby don't get angry with Daddy if you grow up...

Sunday, October 4, 2009

loving pasta.....yum yum...

the ultimate lasagna


  • 2 pound dried lasagna noodles
  • Extra-virgin olive oil
  • 2 pounds ground beef
  • 2 pound ground Italian sausage
  • 1 onion, chopped
  • 2 cloves garlic, sliced
  • 3 carrots, chopped
  • 2 stalks celery, chopped
  • 2 tablespoons chopped fresh basil
  • 1/4 cup finely chopped Italian flat-leaf parsley
  • 1 tablespoon chopped oregano leaves
  • 2 tablespoons all-purpose flour
  • 2 cups red wine
  • 2 (28-ounce) cans tomatoes (recommended: San Marzano)
  • 3 tablespoons heavy cream
  • 1 teaspoon ground cinnamon
  • 2 quarts ricotta cheese, (2 containers)
  • 2 eggs, lightly beaten
  • 1/2 cup grated Parmesan
  • Kosher salt and freshly ground black pepper
  • 1 pound mozzarella cheese, shredded
  • Grated Parmesan and mozzarella, for topping


Preheat oven to 350 degrees F.

Cook the lasagna noodles in plenty of boiling salted water until pliable and barely tender, about 10 minutes. Stir with a wooden spoon to prevent sticking. Drain the noodles thoroughly and coat with olive oil to keep them moist and easy to work with.

Coat a large skillet with olive oil, add beef and sausage and brown until no longer pink, about 10 minutes. Season with salt and pepper. In a food processor, combine the onion, carrots, celery, garlic, basil, parsley, an oregano. Process until pureed, add to the pan with the ground meat and stir to combine. Stir in the flour. Add the wine and cook until it has reduced by half. Stir in the tomatoes and add the heavy cream and the cinnamon.

In a mixing bowl, combine ricotta and the parmesan. Stir in the eggs and season with salt and pepper.

To assemble the lasagna: Coat the bottom of a deep 13 by 9-inch pan with olive oil. Arrange 4 noodles lengthwise in a slightly overlapping layer on the sauce. Then, line each end of the pan with a lasagna noodle. This forms a collar that holds in the corners. Dollop 1/2 of the ricotta mixture over the pasta, spread to the edges with a spatula. Spread 1/2 of the meat mixture over the ricotta. Sprinkle 1/2 of the mozzarella on top of the ricotta. Top with a ladle full of sauce, spread evenly. Repeat with the next layer of noodles, ricotta, sauce, and cheeses. Top last layer with noodles, sauce, shredded mozzarella and Parmesan. Tap the pan to force out air bubbles. Bake for 1 hour. Remove from oven. Let lasagna rest for 30 minutes so the noodles will settle and cut easily. Cut into 2-inch squares and serve.