livin' the friggin' geeky life...

recovering from breakup

2009-11-29T23:22:00.000-08:00

I will share my own story...

my first boyfriend..for me he's truly amazing truly..he's cute,sweet and very passionate..

sometimes I wonder does he really love me??or just because Im a nurse, rich etc.

I discovered there's a period of time that I have to move away from him set my goals...

set my future..I discovered he started t be very unfaithful to me and all he did was lying behind my back...

my real second boyfriend which is the father my unborn child Summer Angeline, this was WHOLE different story...

I was like He rocked my world, dnt ever let go of him

I don't want to loose him,and you know what happen???

I don't know myself anymore..I'm losing my identity

my family dnt know me anymore, my TRUE friends telling me I don't have enough time to bond with them..

Then Summer came, little did I know, the dad don't want me or her in his life..

my LIFE stop..

I can't even breathe ...I was like pleading for air
running out of blood...
quenching for water to support me

He's telling me he LOVE his ex-gf...

well he's a FUCKING ASSHOLE!!!

we enjoyed every moment making love etc. , whispering words of " i love you baby" while doing it..hahahahaha!!

such a DOG!!!

I've realize maybe he's right he truly love the girl , so much he doesn't even want me to speak to her, he doesn't the girl to get hurt,

kahit na sinasabi nya na lam nun Girl na may relationship pa kami that time...

but I can't really seem to know if he LOVED me...

cause ' I've asked him..

"mahal mo pa ako" he can't even breathe or even look at me , when I asked him...

I just saw a pain in his eyes a tear ran down on his left eye...

was that a sign that he loves me too... I don't really know but that moment will remain in my heart, he and Summer will be a learning Journey part of my life ....

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I will see someone who's gonna better , treat me right and will turn my life into goodness...

My friends are right i'm inlove with LOVE...

the concept of it itself...

I'm not going to be cynical about it but I have to be careful with myself...

warrior

2009-11-29T21:57:00.000-08:00

I had a beautiful dream... again I was an angel able to fly away with my insecurities,pains,worries in life.
new chapter...
I have a guy admirer,usually i fight with villains in my angel warrior..
These dreams by HEART would be a nic e background while flying and that guy his face really stuck in my mind..gosh i have to google search him...

my oh my as in...I really can't help it...
I have to find him really badly...

loving my artistry

2009-11-09T23:12:00.000-08:00

this may look simple but for me this pictures looks enchanting..

sorry na lng this is one my passion..

my mom is used to be the photographer in our family...

now it's my turn..

realize...

2009-10-24T23:31:00.001-07:00

now i step out of my closet and realize that time will tell that I could control myself, drag me to hell,bring me up to the heavens,

I have a lot of friends from different walks of life, Im so blessed for that, I thank God for that

freeze,...

2009-10-21T20:14:00.001-07:00

"I wish I could freeze this space in time, I wish I could feel ...for you inside,this is my moment, this is my precious moment with you".PERFECT MOMENT by Martin McCuthcheon
.I miss you even though you've hurt me a lot, even though you broke me into pieces, and didnt know how to start.
I may not be perfect, nor as special as you think, but I present myself to you, as a woman, a confidant, a backbone for your decisions.
Im here always even though Im bleeding profusely to death, calling your mercy to accept me back again.
Im waiting , still hoping that you'll soon come to your senses and realize what you've done to me

baby angel...Mommy loves you so much...always remember

2009-10-14T21:53:00.000-07:00

Mommy,why are you thinking of getting rid of me? I love you already,cant you feel and see? I already have ten little fingers and toes, two eyes,a mouth and a little nose. I kick,I move,I wish I could say, Mommy,please dont throw me away. Give me a chance to live and see what I can become, I might ,someday,be president, If,God's Will,this can be done. I may be tall or short,A girl or a boy, Please mommy,love me and please dont listen to them that tell you to destroy. I was sent By God above to give you strength and love, I belong to Jesus,the Lord and Savior up above. He only loaned me to you,I belong to Him and He sent me to you, I beg you to think again mommy,think about what He will do, You will stand before God if you take my life and don't repent of this sin, I am very special,on me you can depend. I will grow up someday and I'll take care of you when you get old, You will love me when you see me,more precious than pure gold. Give me a chance,mommy,this I plead, I will be all that you ever need. You will regret it if you make this choice in haste, Mommy,oh mommy,please wait and see my face. I know I can make you love me if you just give me a chance, I will make you happy enough to laugh,sing and dance. I ask you again,one more time before you throw me away, Please dont do this mommy,please let me stay.

----baby angel, mommy loves you so much...I'm so sorry...Daddy loves mommy too, It's just that....

---Baby don't get angry with Daddy if you grow up...

loving pasta.....yum yum...

2009-10-04T23:02:00.000-07:00

the ultimate lasagna

Ingredients

2 pound dried lasagna noodles
Extra-virgin olive oil
2 pounds ground beef
2 pound ground Italian sausage
1 onion, chopped
2 cloves garlic, sliced
3 carrots, chopped
2 stalks celery, chopped
2 tablespoons chopped fresh basil
1/4 cup finely chopped Italian flat-leaf parsley
1 tablespoon chopped oregano leaves
2 tablespoons all-purpose flour
2 cups red wine
2 (28-ounce) cans tomatoes (recommended: San Marzano)
3 tablespoons heavy cream
1 teaspoon ground cinnamon
2 quarts ricotta cheese, (2 containers)
2 eggs, lightly beaten
1/2 cup grated Parmesan
Kosher salt and freshly ground black pepper
1 pound mozzarella cheese, shredded
Grated Parmesan and mozzarella, for topping

Directions

Preheat oven to 350 degrees F.

Cook the lasagna noodles in plenty of boiling salted water until pliable and barely tender, about 10 minutes. Stir with a wooden spoon to prevent sticking. Drain the noodles thoroughly and coat with olive oil to keep them moist and easy to work with.

Coat a large skillet with olive oil, add beef and sausage and brown until no longer pink, about 10 minutes. Season with salt and pepper. In a food processor, combine the onion, carrots, celery, garlic, basil, parsley, an oregano. Process until pureed, add to the pan with the ground meat and stir to combine. Stir in the flour. Add the wine and cook until it has reduced by half. Stir in the tomatoes and add the heavy cream and the cinnamon.

In a mixing bowl, combine ricotta and the parmesan. Stir in the eggs and season with salt and pepper.

To assemble the lasagna: Coat the bottom of a deep 13 by 9-inch pan with olive oil. Arrange 4 noodles lengthwise in a slightly overlapping layer on the sauce. Then, line each end of the pan with a lasagna noodle. This forms a collar that holds in the corners. Dollop 1/2 of the ricotta mixture over the pasta, spread to the edges with a spatula. Spread 1/2 of the meat mixture over the ricotta. Sprinkle 1/2 of the mozzarella on top of the ricotta. Top with a ladle full of sauce, spread evenly. Repeat with the next layer of noodles, ricotta, sauce, and cheeses. Top last layer with noodles, sauce, shredded mozzarella and Parmesan. Tap the pan to force out air bubbles. Bake for 1 hour. Remove from oven. Let lasagna rest for 30 minutes so the noodles will settle and cut easily. Cut into 2-inch squares and serve.

2009-09-20T14:33:00.000-07:00

it;s so hard when you love a person and that guy doent treeying you special, mas priority pa nya yun other person.

nag promise sya kmi punta tagaytay, nagpunta sya ibang tao pa yun kasma nya,hndi nya inisip na ako yun isama..

masakit sobra, love suppose to be happy right???

whyI am not feeling it...

kanye wayne...sucks!!

2009-09-13T21:52:00.000-07:00

I've watched what happen, he truly likes a n asshole doing that to Taylor Swift, she's a nice girl and such a swet singer.

Hr sucks real big this time!!

Things He’s Worried About When You See Him Naked

2009-08-21T03:08:00.000-07:00

“I hate my not-so-flat abs. I sometimes worry girls only like muscle men like David Beckham, but my six-pack looks more like a one-pack.” —Mike, 31

“I play a lot of sports, so body odor can be kind of a problem. I definitely don’t want to be known as the smelly guy.”—Rob, 25

“I’m Italian and have more body hair than most men. It’s dark and thick, so there’s no point trying to shave it. I pray girls don’t notice my shoulder and back sprouts.”—Anthony, 26

“I’m Italian and have more body hair than most men. It’s dark and thick, so there’s no point trying to shave it. I pray girls don’t notice my shoulder and back sprouts.”—Anthony, 26

“It can get really sweaty down there. I worry about grossing her out with my sweaty junk.”—Donny, 28

“I wish I had more muscle tone. Sometimes I pull down the fat on my gut so it lets my abs show through a bit more.”—Freddie, 26

“What do I hate about by body? Two words. Man. Boobs.”—Chris, 24

“My upper arms don’t exactly bulge, and even when I’m good about lifting, they never seem to get any bigger.”—Will, 22

universities

2009-08-21T01:37:00.000-07:00

Harvard and Princeton lead the national universities in U.S. News’ 2010 college rankings.
Introduction by Kenneth Terrell

Princeton University
For the second year in a row, Harvard University tops the U.S. News & World Report rankings of America's Best Colleges, but this time it has company. By edging up slightly in the 15 indicators of academic excellence that U.S. News uses to compile the rankings, Princeton University tied Harvard for first place on the list of national universities. Among the liberal arts colleges, Williams College edged out Amherst College. Last year, those two Massachusetts schools tied for first place in that category.

The new lists mark the 26th edition of U.S. News's annual college rankings. In recent years, Harvard University's sterling academic reputation appears to have been bolstered by the Cambridge, Mass., school's decision in December 2007 to increase significantly the financial aid awards it grants. Students from families that earn less than $60,000 per year don't have to pay any costs to attend, and those from families that earn between $60,000 and $180,000 per year will pay no more than 10 percent of their annual income. For most Harvard students (about 60 percent), these policies add up to a big discount off the elite university's $52,000-per-year sticker price. In another financial aid innovation, Harvard recently announced a program to help its international students secure student loans on their own. Previously, international students could get such loans only with a U.S. resident as a cosigner. Harvard fittingly also claims first place on the U.S. News list of schools that offer the best financial aid.
For Princeton, the No. 1 ranking means a return to the top after slipping to second place last year. The New Jersey college is kicking off several new initiatives this school year. In the fall, 20 entering freshmen will spend their first year of college overseas doing community service work in Peru, Ghana, Serbia, or India. It's a test to see how "gap years" or "bridge years," in which high school graduates do a year of travel and work before starting their freshman year of college, should be integrated into the university's overall program of study. In years to come, as many as 100 first-year students each fall could enroll in the program. Princeton is also one of six universities participating in the test-drive of how Amazon's electronic book, the Kindle, can be used in college classrooms. Students and faculty in select courses will use the devices as textbooks.

The U.S. News & World Report rankings measure up to 15 indicators of academic performance for each college and university. Quantitative data that assess a college's performance in areas such as graduation and retention rates, faculty resources, financial resources, student selectivity, and alumni giving account for 75 percent of a college's score. The other 25 percent is based on a peer assessment survey the magazine sends to top officials at each school asking them to rate the other colleges in their category. Each year, the ranking methodology is reassessed to stay current with developments in higher education. For example, in recent years, U.S. News has incorporated more data about the proportion of low-income students that a school enrolls into its ranking measurements just as most selective colleges have made efforts to recruit more disadvantaged students.

These periodic methodology adjustments make flat year-to-year comparisons of a school's U.S. News ranking somewhat misleading. Nevertheless, alumni tend to take note of which schools have gained an edge on their academic rivals. That might be harder to do this year because of the number of ties on the list. In addition to the Princeton-Harvard tie for first in the national universities list, the Massachusetts Institute of Technology tied with its West Coast rival, the California Institute of Technology, for fourth place. And college football fans should note that the University of Florida and the University of Texas–Austin—both contending for the top spot in the preseason gridiron rankings—are also locked in a tie on the U.S. News academic rankings in the 47th slot.

oi bawal yan!!

2009-08-18T06:36:00.000-07:00

bawal sa akin yun mga taong mas pasaway pa sa akin...

mas epal pa sa ka epalan ko...

mas makulit pa sa akin at tipong eentra pa pag makulit ako...

nakiki feeling close sa akin, na sa totoo eh gusto lang maki gaya sa akin or mangutang..kapal nyo dude!!

maki bonding sa mga activities namin ng mga friends ko, at mag susuggest ng kung anu-ano , eh wala namn sila ma icontribute kundi suggestion lang...

yummy

2009-08-16T19:50:00.000-07:00

yummy food for me again...I don't go for cakes..but ice cream..really.. I go for it..courtesy of Don Sanvictores..from Pancake House!!

can't help it...I was like a kid scooping everything in the luscious food!!

want some???

2009-08-16T19:44:00.001-07:00

aww..I really love diggin' to this food!! my comfort food.. it's like I could bring to the movie house watch the latest flick with my bestfriend!!

as in wow...when I just pop a cream into my mouth askin' him.."hey why does snake eyes not taking his mask off"?

hahaha!!his body is so somethin' too bad ...Channing Tatum got married with his former co-star in Step up...

well..They look good together anyway

hood

2009-08-08T23:00:00.000-07:00

playing with the hood...

kinda' sleepy because of the weather...

freeze...

brian @ my back..trying to watch porn anime' joke!!

tech or billing??

2009-08-08T22:27:00.001-07:00

haVin' my nicey trainer..freakin' crazy new found friends in pitney bowes...

geeezzzz..they are like my soulmates...

like we can finish each other's sentences..and make fun of it each other without offending...

tech or billing??

2009-08-08T22:27:00.000-07:00

CVG

2009-07-27T00:18:00.000-07:00

missing my Convergys friends so much..

we have move on to different paths..some of us continued our journey there..some of Us like me..resigned...

This wave is so tight we treat each other like as a family...

Missing them so much...

mommy carol---Mommy!!missing you so much ..come back home soon...I know you'll be ahppt there In London...

mommy mitch---hey!!miss you too mom..wiht crazy and funny anectodes ..ur such a loving mom and fiance' ...

daddy jojo---our daddy for keeps..See Dad!!you survived!!

leslie--Girl!!miss you na!!ano yosi' break n b tyo???hahaha...nakiki epal lng me palagi..lam mo nah..

mheng--mhenggay!!ano nah??I miss the times we make chitchat at quick connect!

orchid--uy buntis!! when will you see us??miss ka na namin..Love to see your new baby soon!

lai--girl!! more power sa relationship nyo ni Jay...Forever na dapt yan ha!!

kuya denz--VIDEOKE KING!!! i miss the bonding moments with you!!thanks for all the advices..I truly appreciated it!!

ate hazel--hey you!!how's life!! okay na sa TEAM!! we'll get together soon ha!

ysai--where are you na??? we miss you!!

tin--girl!!okay na yun ha!!wala na sa akin yun!! you can make it!!

ellah--girl!! We're always here for you..don't mind ----- !!hahaha!!I miss our overnight bonding!!

gaye--We're just here!!If you need us..we're just a text away...Kailan b tyo mag o out of town???lagi n lang na po postponed yun Tagaytay natin!! miss you!

Kuya ron--hey !!thanks for being an older brother to me...and approving and disapproving of the guys that's been passing thru my life...hehehe!!
miss you...terribly.

Kuya Elmo--Missing the ever frank and opinionated guy ever!!! Super loving and caring daddy figure ever...

joseph--AMAZING!!loving the quotable quotes from your spill..when your taking calls!keep it up bro!!

ayheen--sis!! always remember I respect all your decisions in life and I love you ...always take care your precious kid..miss you...

ashley--oist!!thanks for the Godly quotes truly love them and thanks for updating me..regarding our pals there...

Mommy precy--a darling mom to everyone...I know that you also think of us and miss us...
Keep in touch!!

ultimate celeb crush

2009-07-25T17:32:00.000-07:00

lovin' him so much..can't help to be very angry when I've heard he's been dating Rihanna..I mean duh..I'm so much pretty then her...lols!!!

man in the mirror

2009-07-25T05:14:00.000-07:00

missing the king of pop!!

channel 23 is doing a special ---Y speak..

and showing the 30th anniverssary special Of michael jackson's

and lookin' at his daughter..you can feel he's just also like a simple DAD to her loving precious kid...

so long king of pop...

for sure you are a BIG PART in our lives...

as his song goes...

"I'm Gonna Make A Change,For Once In My Life,It's Gonna Feel Real Good,Gonna Make A Difference,Gonna Make It Right . . .:----and he did...

you'll never be forgotten...

May you rest in peace...

hmmmm..fetching moments....

2009-07-23T22:16:00.000-07:00

Insensitive by jane arden

How do you cool your lips, after a summer\'s kiss?

How do you rid the sweat, after the body bliss?

How do you turn your eyes, from the romantic glare?

How do you block the sound of a voice, you\'d know anywhere?

Oh I really should have known,

By the time you drove me home,

By the vagueness in your eyes,

Your casual good-byes,

By the chill in your embrace,

The expression on your face, that told me,

Maybe you might have, some advise to give, on how to be, insensitive.

How do you numb your skin, after the warmest touch?

How do you slow your blood, after the body rush?

How do you free your soul, after you\'ve found a friend?

How do you teach your heart it\'s a crime, to fall in love again?

Well you prob\'bly won\'t remember me,

It\'s prob\'bly ancient history,

I\'m one of the chosen few,

Who went ahead and fell for you,I\'m out of bold,

I\'m out of touch,I fell too fast,

I feel too much

,I thought that you might have, some advise to give,

on how to be, insensitive.

Oh I really sould have known,

By the time you drove me home,by the vagueness in your eyes,

You casual good-byes,By the chill in your embrace,

The expression on your face, that told me,

Maybe you might have, some advise to give,

on how to be, insensitive.(how to be) insensitive(how to be) insensitive(how to be)

----lovin the song...what a nice weather today...=P

handweaved by yours truly...

2009-07-23T22:06:00.000-07:00

Too fool to fall inlove

why does it always be to be confuse with flee?

everything changes about me

when you came into my heart by leap

Foolish is what they can say

to love you for so faraway

I don't have the enough guts to say

The emotions that keeps on boggling me

Telling me that ypu really love me

is really impossible

Cause' I know my rival is very unpredictable

Together with you fulfilled my purest dream

to enjoy the sea hand in hand to watch the sunset ,

as we lay on the white sand

maybe it's really faith

maybe it really never going to happen

But someday I wish I could hold and call you mine

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same way

feels like im drowning,

feels like im exhausted,

feels like im hallucinating,

everytime i see with your girl,

you hug her so tender

and the words you always whisper to her

how I wish that im that girl

hoping your girl of ur dreams

and feeling the same way I feel about you

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If you really knew

I may not be serious as you see me in my actions

You may not hear the sweet words I always say abt you

I may not be close enough to approach you dearly

But my heart shout with flee

when I hear your voice

You may feel Im a friend of yours who really cares and love you

But all this time deep inside in my heart

I really mean love you...

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GUYS

guys come and go

sometimes they're arrogant and left you in sorrow

tearin' up ur heartand findin' someone to start

they give you headaches and heartaches

and if you're not too careful your heart might break

they can be actors in movies

like making you laugh,cry and saying "IM sorry"

Guys willl change for sure

hope that's true and for secure

sick and tired of their liesI can't help to say it's time to say goodbye!!

***my poems***highschool days...made it from scratch..lols =P

handweaved

2009-07-23T22:00:00.000-07:00

"I have loved you in silence"

Whenevr I looked at youI feel sudden sadness

beacause i knew you are someone

Who could never be mine

maybe you have noticed the sudden changes I am having lately

I just couldnt handle it anymore

I can't go on pretending

I hate myself for not being able to admit

I am too afraid of the consequencesthat are bound to happen

Your smile keep on haunting me

my mind is telling me to forget you...But how?

For long I have loved in silence

I tried to show it

Hoping that you'll soon seethe feelings that I hide

Yet..you are so blind

Or maybe you're just not ready

For something like this

Or maybe you are waiting for my move

A move that might never happen

The distance between us is gettin' bigger

I couldn't do anything but

To admire from a distance

I know whatever happens You and I will remain as a dream

Only in my dreams I can hold you'

Only there I can tell you are mine

But when the dream is finally over

Reality creeps through my heart and says you're someone who could never be mine.

*fave poems*bear with it...

you may never know...

2009-07-23T21:49:00.000-07:00

when I meet new people I tend to observe them..whether I would approach that quickly and do some chitchat with them or just be contented to like create a dream like moments with them..har har...(for cutie guys...*wink*)

there are certain people that really jive my mood...like them...like a pop!!instant it's like a soul thing...

che( left pic) AND ME...i DNT KNOW...we're sharing certain things..just like an instant noodle ..lols...

suaring and me( middle pic)...har har..Jc for the first name..cause we're always last in pickin' so...we tend to query..How about we are the first huh???HAHAHA..we love to take pictures...

allen happy!!I miss this guy so much..we're like in the same age bracket...we have the almost the same likes and dislikes for guys...whew.. wish I could bond with him again...miss yeah friend!!

sitel peeps

2009-07-23T21:36:00.000-07:00

these are the people from PaY pal.. Sitel Eastwood.. miss them...

kitakits n lng sa building..hehehe

lovin' the life'

2009-07-23T20:28:00.000-07:00

Now I've realize I really have to buy a laptop..

well..we have to personal computer..but still I need my own..

could someone spare atleast 20K.. so I could buy one..just kiddin'

whew..

what a week for me...